I have been prioritizing loving myself. Each time I feel angry, angst, worry, or fear I just go in and love the part of me feeling that. I felt guided to stop addressing the other feelings directly, the way I used to process. Since these emotions generally come from not feeling loved, why not just assist that part of me to feel love?
This can look like one of two things: either changing the vibration of the underlying emotion to a higher one that feels more like love to me (flowing, no resistance, expansive, uplifted, etc) or assisting the inner emoting part of me that usually looks like an inner child to accept comfort and love - and actually feel it rather than feel outside of it.
So much has changed. Some inner hole got filled in. I am more accepting and flexible because of it. More importantly, my first response to anything unexpected, attacking, or potentially demeaning and judgmental used to be anger. Not anymore. I have no idea where it went but I am more observant and neutral, compassionate even. I even found myself a few days ago wondering why I wasn’t angry when that would have been my normal response to a particular situation with that specific person. It just wasn’t there.
Other emotions still come up – fear, anxiety and worry- but not anger. Since I would say my whole demeanor used to be defined by my anger and I felt fueled by it, this is a huge change for me. I also know that if this has occurred, the same can happen for the fear, anxiety and worry. Woo Hoo!!