I remember when I used to say I want to know in every cell of my being that I am God walking in a human body – not just intellectually understand it. For the most part I am there. I thought it would be different, more huge miracles and highs, but mostly what I feel is a satisfied contentment. Of course there are times when I am very frustrated and fearful but those times are less intense and I let it all flow easier. I have also learned to appreciate things the way they are and see all the miracles right in front of me. As I do more of this, the serendipitous abundant events keep occurring. It is true that it doesn’t always happen the way I think or want it to or even understand but there is always movement.
For example, I have been feeling the need to go to a local coffee shop to write for 3 weeks. I resisted because I interpreted it to mean I should be writing the book I never finished and I just didn’t want to. The feeling got stronger. I even tried to write at home – nothing. So I finally went to the coffee shop. I met someone there for a while and then started writing. To procrastinate I spent time talking to the manager and lo and behold I am now going to be doing readings here once a week. They just opened 3.5 months ago. (The urge started almost when the place opened.) I still don’t know if I will be writing (more than blogs that is) but I feel like I followed my guidance. You can be sure I will continue to do so.