Sometimes your higher self nudges you to do things or make choices that are perfect for your spiritual growth but may seem very scary or disappointing for your every day life if you are not in an accepting or trusting place.
Today I launched a new website but the day my web designer mentioned changing it to take advantage of new software that allows me a greater degree of control I stressed out so badly my body shut down for a day or two. It felt right, I really wanted it but the opportunity hit the same day I had to pay rent, the same day the last little bit of money came in to be ABLE to pay rent. I wasn't sure if I could afford to pay to change my site.
But I am committed to trusting in the midst of fear when my intuitive guidance is so strong. So I now have a redesigned, beautiful website that reflects me better AND the money came from a cleaning job and a donation by a fabulous friend. I also know I needed this redo in order to handle the future of my business.
There are times I am guided to cancel a trip or distance from an acquaintance or take a part time job I really don't want. I do it because the guidance seems strong. Usually there is a second reason that is not obvious. It is true that I will be able to make changes faster and it is also true that the energy of my website needed to change and will carry me through the next level of my business. BUT more than that, it was a great exercise in healing some deep fear around money. The jobs have given me money when I need it and they have also helped to bring up other issues that need addressing (different ones with each job).
So back to trusting.