I woke up today with energy and readiness to move forward. I am so grateful. I wrote some ofthe book without whining in my head. I walked to the library and back (3.5 miles). I felt full of optimism, hope and energy without any restlessness that often accompanies having energy. I have no idea what caused this but I am very grateful for it.
I have spent over 2 months not feeling well physically and many months more going through emotional stuff. I have been doing a lot more inner healing and integrating into the physical – which of course brought up a lot of old emotions/beleifs stored in the phsyical. Does that mean that today I am done with the digging up of the old? Maybe for a time. Hard to know if there is a ‘done’.
I like this state of being. I am not crazed with trying to find something to do. I am enjoying the beautiful cool weather. I am not impatient (well except for when the computer at the library wouldn’t play the video I wanted to watch!!) or immersed in negative self-talk. I am more aware of the self-talk that goes on in the background but it is not overwhelming or triggering negative emotions.
I am also not wanting to do a lot of meditation or inner work right now. If it comes up that is ok but I am not trying to do it so I feel better.
I go through periods like this. It is my desire to live my life this grounded and peaceful brushed with the light of joy.