I was recently frustrated with a friend who is having severe heart troubles (to the point of pain and palpitations just talking animatedly, and fainting a lot) and is still acting out a very detrimental behavior and emotional pattern of putting someone else first to the point of harming herself by working very hard on a project for a family member (to complete a gift, not an emergency). I couldn’t even talk to her one day because I couldn’t stand to be around the energy of it.
I caught up with myself and began exploring why I was having such a strong reaction. I realized I was/am very frustrated with myself for continuing an addictive behavior pattern that is equally self-destructive. So I sat down and re-identified with my expanded, eternal self (rather than the ego-addicted self) and imagined the jail of this addiction releasing from my mind, my emotions and my psyche (not very different than the mind for this purpose). I felt and saw the bindings of the ‘bars’ release and dissolve. I also allowed a lot of healing within my heart and other areas of my emotional energies. As I have already done so much healing and shifting for underlying causes of this addiction, I was not guided to do any work or allow any shifting on anything like that. I was purely addressing where I still held on to the addictive thinking patterns and resulting hurt and reactions.
I am able to be a compassionate witness for my friend now and am excitedly looking forward to the different choices I know I will be able to make in my every day life.
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Well it is – for them.
Use your discernment to find your way – which may or may not be the same as any one else’s. You will know what is right for you by the way you feel. If you feel uplifted, inspired or expanded, or even challenged, then you know the information or choice is correct for you. If not, well, think about it again. The immediate results in your life may tell you nothing so you will need to at least pretend that your inner feelings/senses can guide you.
And do not pay any attention to me if this doesn’t work for you.
So if you are just acknowledging the possibility of your own energy creating your life you are in a very different place than individuals who have shifted so much that they live in trust and faith every single day without the need to consciously focus on exactly what they might want in life (not sure how many of those there are but there must be some out there somewhere). So your needs, your processes and your path will be different – not better or worse, just different. It is all good and all appropriate.
Oh and there is no hurry either – you won’t be ‘left behind’ if you think you are not moving fast enough. That is just a thought that you can let go of – if you wish
Just another reason to relax, have some fun, and allow.
Give the universe time to catch up with your changes. Give yourself time to settle in to this new, expanded version of you. Live in this for a while.
Moving into the higher vibration way of living means trusting on a very deep level that all is well, you are always taken care of, and everything is connected. Live like that now. Go have some fun. Let go of the worries and the need to make anything happen. The best way to do that, aside from lots of inner energy work, is to have fun, the sillier the better.
I love bubbles. I have no idea why, I just do. Once when I was visiting with a friend in Long Beach, CA I bought a bubble gun. It is a battery-operated gun with a laser light that you connect to bubble mixture (soap and water). When you pull the trigger many bubbles come out. When I am down or doubting, I pull out the gun and shoot bubbles. I do it from my balcony, I do it while I am out walking, and I do it on the beach. It makes me laugh and it makes other people light up too.
When I laugh over nothing like that, I am totally present and satisfied. That signals to my higher self and the universe that I am ready for the next great thing or change in my life. All the inner doors are open and I am receptive. Be silly.
Take a good look around you. Pay attention to how you feel and how things look. Then close your eyes and raise your vibration or connect stronger with your inner being/higher self/God (whatever works for you). You can imagine your vibration measured by a dial (or a digital reading for you youngsters) and then turn the dial up or increase the digital reading. Really feel the expansion, breathe into any constriction. Open your eyes. Notice how the colors themselves of your environment are brighter and how much more light there seems to be. Notice your heart seems to connect with the natural world much easier. I bet you even feel happier.
Sometimes it takes longer to raise your vibration because you have to detach from all the worry and fear but it is worth it to be a little happier in your life.
Slowing down also helps me soothe the edges of my psychic awareness. I am consciously aware of being constantly bombarded by psychic noise of one sort or another, such as info about people, the speed at which the energy on and of earth is changing, upcoming world events, others’ emotions, etc. It happens to all of us, some of us are just more sensitive to it than others.
When I take the time for me, just resting or reading or meditating or enjoying the ocean, I find it easier to allow all of that psychic noise to just slide off of me. I can feel the edges of my awareness relaxing and healing and I tend to reconnect even deeper to the eternal part of me – that is also the eternal part of everything. It makes life more delicious.
Additionally, and more interestingly, slowing down means I let go of resistance and my inner growth zooms. I just get out of my own way. So I embrace slowing down wholeheartedly and am even learning to allow it before I get so stressed that some part of me has to create a specific event to remind me (those events usually hurt!).
So ‘they’ say you should produce blogs and newsletters, offer classes and specials, and be as prolific as you can to attract business. Or write those annoying (and long) marketing emails and send them out as often as possible. Of course, ‘they’ also say you should look a certain way, do certain things, and earn a certain income, etc.
If you are paying attention to your inner being/higher self/intuitive guidance (all the same to me) you may find that your actions are timed differently and are just completely different than any of that. You may find satisfaction in the simple things, basking in the sacredness of inner stillness. You may find just enough income plenty for you.
I know I have surprised myself. For instance, I have pretty much overhauled all my beliefs about money over the years but especially in the past year. I know my passion and commitment is to inner spiritual growth while in this body and EVERYTHING else comes after that. So I am more accepting of jobs that are not super-satisfying as long as I get to maintain my spiritual growth and they meet a few other basic requirements. I live pretty simply so I can spend money on what is important to me (books, fabric, some medical needs and my cat). Everything I was using money for is healing - to fill the insecurities up, to stay closed to people so I won't get hurt, etc.
I even caught an image of myself the other day as I entered a building and really liked what I saw – purple hair, sagging neck, Walmart clothes, ‘extra’ 30 lbs and all. Certainly none of that fits in with what I imagine 'they say is supposed to be. It has taken a lot of internal work to get to this place and I am thrilled to be here. I am writing about it so I will remember it ALL THE TIME!!! LOL!!
This is a time of rejoicing, celebrating the new you. Now you have to give yourself time to allow the ‘new’ you to emerge. It really is the true you before you adopted all that negativity or ‘rules’ on how you are supposed to behave, how you connect with others and what defines success.
It is ok to have a period of adjustment. Have patience and show compassion for yourself as you navigate the self-discovery path once again. Try new things, even if it is just taking a new route to work each day or looking at your current relationships differently. Any activity or choice that supports you being fully present and aware will lead you towards what is best for you. But most of all have fun. In the light of amusement and joy will come your greatest realizations and connections.
Ever wanted to change something about yourself or get something accomplished but just couldn't make it happen no matter how hard you tried?
It is possible this desire to change or accomplish something specific comes from a deep inner knowing that the it is right for you and is coming but you aren't quite aware yet that there are certain things that need to heal or transform before it arrives. Knowing this can spur your growth and/or trigger it.
For instance, I have been trying to go 'raw' in my food for about 7-8 years. I felt called to it and knew it was right for me. I had heard about it maybe 5 years prior to that but I had so much resistance and so much inner emotion tied to eating for comfort, emotional fulfillment and escape that I could not do it. My sense of depirvation and victimhood was in the way. I then developed several physical diseases that could definitely have been mitigated by eating properly. Additionally, as I transformed into a higher vibrational being there were (are) certain foods my body just could no longer tolerate. I still struggled for 4 more years with tryng to eat alive and high vibrational foods. A few months ago I started getting sick ANY TIME I ate foods that were different from that.
I always knew I had to heal whatever wouldn't allow me to eat properly rather than exert my will over the out-of-control inner child that insisted on eating to help every emotional situation but I had a lot of shame because I listened to other people's judgment of me and because I didn't bow to accepted societal pressure to "get thin". In the meantime I have been constantly shifting, expanding and healing old limiting ehaviors, beleifs and patterns. After years of healing and changing, I recently had a series of major spiritual and energy transformations in seemingly unrelated areas and WHAM!! with no warning, fanfare or drama, my eating habits changed. I cook very few foods these days and eat even less processed foods. These transformations also helped me be very calm, centered and trusting around my income and certain other core issues I have carried around this life time.
I notice this in all areas of my life, even something as inconsequential as trying to finish a sewing project for someone else. If i try to push to make anything happen, completion or accomplishment seems to move farther away. If I relax and focus on embracing whatever reaction or thought comes from within when I don't want to continue or when things don't seem to be moving, everything flows much faster. These days I am letting inspiration carry me to wherever my higher self directs.
Recently I have been very angry with someone who has been a friend for a long time. Everything about her that I normally can deal with was making the anger worse. I was beside myself with frustration that I couldn’t let it go and wondered over and over why it was so intense. She wasn’t doing or acting in any way different than she usually does. However, no matter how often I embraced that anger or loved up the judgment (and asked forgiveness from her and her higher self) the anger stuck around and stayed very focused on her.
After a lot of inner work on other things, I finally realized I was angry because for a specific length of time a she was representing a lot of my fears and it was easier to blame her or focus on her than my own insecurities and issues. I am revisiting all the stuff I let people do to me in this life due to my lack of self-esteem so I am particularly sensitive to the slightest whiff of disrespect (intended or not). I had been experiencing another level of anguish over my faith (or lack of faith) in my intuitive guidance or that the universe will take care of me in a positive way and therefore was trying to make an income strictly from whatever came my way, even if it wasn’t in my highest and best good. Additionally, because of my fear around my income level many of my decisions were clearly fear based (a job I took and stayed with for too long, not purchasing certain basic things I needed, clinging to past negative experiences as my guide post for not offering healing classes, and asking her’s and other people’s opinions when I was in resistance). All of these things were mirrored and encouraged by certain things this friend does, says or believes, including her denial that she has any fear or makes any decisions from fear (something I do – in my mind at least).
I also mistook what is fear for practicality. It was time for me to heal at a deeper and to recognize, and appropriately detach, from my dependence on her beliefs and approval and from the fears she was mirroring so beautifully. As a result I have integrated my spiritual awareness to a deeper level and made great leaps in bridging the physical and ego with the spiritual energies of me, all while releasing a lot of pent up/suppressed negative emotions. An intense learning experience, for sure.
I am deeply grateful for her willingness to mirror this for me. I bet we are all like that to at least one other person but this past month I got to see it within her and me clearly. God Bless her and everyone else in my life who agreed to be this kind of mirror and/or catalyst for my continued growth.
I recently attended a meeting at a catholic church to hear a lay person speak. This person has been documented as dying and coming back to life 3 days later. Now he goes around to Catholic churches testifying about his personal relationship with Jesus (he talks to and hears from Jesus every day) and praying over their prayer petitions (they write what their prayers on paper and put them in a box for him to take and pray over later). He is not allowed by the Catholic church to do hands on healing and he abides by their rules. I am not Catholic or even Christian but something about this drew me. I follow my intuition, so I went. I prayed to be open-minded and to support any healing needed (by me and others). When I first saw this man I felt a wash of loving and gentle energy flow through me, kind of like people talk about being touched by the holy spirit. My heart opened even more while I sat there. I petitioned for healing for my liver and blood sugar issues.
I woke in the middle of the night going through some kind of energy healing. I felt the energy – stronger than when I was at the meeting – flow through my entire body. My skin tingled. I did not see the exact time but my instinct tells me it was around 3am. I felt very alive and wide awake yet didn’t move. As soon as the energy stopped moving I went right back to sleep.
When I woke up the next day my blood sugar had dropped 30 points – HUGE for me. I also found myself rejecting my inner needy child’s desire for snacks and sugar throughout the day. WOW!! Really WOW is all I can even write or say about this. There was a time I wouldn’t even go into a church – thank god and my higher self and all the inner work I have done that I am very tuned in to my guidance and willing to follow. Stay open - miracles could be right around the corner.