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 I am having an incredibly growthful time.  The past week my higher self has been working over time to help me change my perspective in many ways.  I am thrilled that these shifts do seem to be MUCH gentler than the way I usually shift.

I want to share two specific circumstances with you.  You can see if there is something in your life or something you are holding on to that might benefit from a slight change in perspective.

1.  Letting go of looking at the negative – esp when looking at the past. I met a woman last week who doesn’t dwell on the past at all.  She doesn’t let anything that happened before limit her future or her present moment.  She was delightful and insightful. I know I had a lovely opening by being in her presence both because I learned so much from her and because of her positive attitude.

I was a bit overwhelmed with how much I changed as a result of that meeting.  When I was trying to explain how I felt to a friend, the friend took the opportunity to really blast me because I wasn’t able to explain myself clearly – she felt I wasn’t understanding how important the visit had been to my growth or she got impatient with my fumbling around with it.  Then she proceeded to dump some other opinions on me about my behvior , moods, and conversations, all involving me needing to change the way I judge others, speak and my mood in general. She didn’t lie in what she said, she was just incredibly harsh and determined to say what she felt she needed to say without any real conversation about it. It was difficult to hear because I was already still vulnerable and overwhelmed from the internal processing going on.

I was angry at first, and for most of the day.  But I was lovingly guided by my intuition to view my friend’s conversation as another step in preparing me for the deep shift I did the next day.  I saw this nudging to the next level of processing (really to complete the process that  began earlier in the week) just came from another aspect of god showing up as my friend, as if she was intuitively guided to say what she did.  I might not have paid attention if it came to me just as intuitive knowledge. That change in perspective allowed me to  relax and let go of any anger or resentment at my friend as if it never occurred.     She played her role in my life at that moment beautifully.

The big shift was a release of old resentment and bitterness at how I have been treated in this life and about all the things/events/ circumstances and people I either didn’t get to experience or had to let go of during my spiritual evolution. The shock of how my friend talked to me and what she said helped make it happen sooner (always my choice).  Without all that old stuff it is easier for me to believe in all sorts of possibilities for me  and to allow manifestation of wonders in my life.

2. Change in how I view taking care of myself -  I have been guided to a recovery program for food addiction and needed to come up with a plan to follow each day.  I was seeing it as a punishment even though I chose to do this and even though in the almost 3 weeks I have been in the program I have grown by leaps and bounds.  Someone made a suggestion that changed everything.  She suggested I change the title to a Plan of Loving Kindness.  Isn’t that something???  I relaxed as soon as I began thinking of it that way.  I felt happier and all the inner resistance danced away.

I am happy with my willingness to pay attention, stay open and change my attitude/perspective when I get stuck or blocked.

 I get to have some of the most interesting experiences following my intuition.  I have been particularly blessed lately with meeting new people who have brought so much richness to my growth.  I enjoy and treasure the ever-increasing happiness I am finding by my continued spiritual evolution.  But I LOVE (and am very entertained by) the out of this world magical visions that come when big shifts occur and when I am around other spiritual masters who are very open.

I met a master healer recently and experienced support in healing on all levels.  He recommended some vitamins, herbs and healing techniques based on his knowledge and intuitive feedback from my body and higher self.  He also did some craniosacral healing for my body.  The fun part came when we started working with our higher selves to clear/heal energy with and for each other.
I helped to clear some implants within him and to realign/recalibrate some of his integrating energy.  Please note a spiritual surgeon (a spiritual being who is a surgeon) showed up to do the actual work, I only facilitated it.  The healer also asked me to channel a lot of information about various life cycles of existence plus some other interesting stuff that I usually don’t think about, as well as the ‘normal’ stuff people ask about when they meet a psychic.
This healer helped me clear some old imprints and agreements that have been limiting me, especially an old lifetime (before Lemuria) where I decided I needed to sacrifice myself to hold part of the earth together during a cataclysmic explosion to try to save a group of people.  My soul was shattered while some part of me held on to some dark energy that caused the explosion, and the rest of me has been governed by some of the old ways of being in that society (isolationist, not wanting to mingle with the ‘real’ physical world, etc).  That is the extremely short version of the story.  This is a theme I have had over and over in many lifetimes and in many dreams in this lifetime. It was quite an involved process to heal this and to release some of the old energy of it, as well as participate in healing some of that energy on a global level. We also addressed an old vow that I swear I have released over and over of obedience, chastity and poverty.  YUCK!!  I sure hope that one finally releases.
It was an incredible healing session that I am still recovering from two days later.  It was very intense for both of us because we both tend to be people who open completely and whole heartedly, allowing healing as deep as it can go and were excited to be around someone else who would/could do the same. I released a lot of fear (so much that three separate times in 2 hours I thought I was going to pass out from the intensity of it), changed a lot of energetic DNA and re-integrated a lot of pieces of my soul.  I also released a lot of ‘darker’ (or lower vibration) energy that was caught deep inside of me from that lifetime and reconnected with the energy I work in – the divine pink vibration.  I am sure a lot of new understanding will come from this as time goes on.  Right now I am being kind to myself as I continue integrating and shifting from all of this.
The lesson in all of this for me is to continue following my intuitive guidance even when I do not understand it or cannot imagine what the outcome will be.  I met this healer when I posted a request on a yahoo group for local holistic events, healers, classes etc.  I was looking to trade my healing facilitation services for a massage. I love massages and I need them now that I am back making art (I make fabric art – lots of sewing and hunched shoulders).  This person responded.  I thought it was a woman and called to make an appointment.  When I realized he was male, I almost cancelled because I have not been impressed by too many men calling themselves master healers. The when I saw where he lived I almost turned around and went back home, because he lives in an apartment complex that looks like it is for homeless people and I was not comfortable with that.    Then when I sat down to talk to him and he was talking about vitamins and herbs I once again thought I made a mistake.  Each time I thought any of this, my higher self directed me to  stay, be open and allow.  So I did.
I am so glad I did not let my judgment and fear get in the way of me following my intuitive guidance.  And the funny thing is I never received a massage at all.

I write these blogs to show my spiritual growth and how it affects my every day life – how I integrate, the changes I see as a result, how steadily I am getting happier and how my spiritual mastery unfolds more and more.

So today – I am experiencing a lot of fear.  It is clear that one of the great growth factors for me, right now,  is the need to serve – to help in some way that is sane and balanced.  In other words, where I take care of myself and I serve others.  I do not know yet how that service will show up in my life since I am too afraid to allow it.

I have had many lifetimes where my need to serve caused me to sacrifice myself and other lifetimes where my need to take care of myself caused me to be quite resentful and selfish.  In this life, I have teetered back and forth between the two.  Right now I am being guided to serve more and a lot of fear is making itself known. All my fears of being sacrificed, used and miserable are up strong; plus I am sad that I have not healed this even though I get to visit this issue a lot.  I know I had a rather intense experience with clearing some painful old energy and emotions around this issue just this past Friday (see previous blog) and that is why it is still up strong.   Knowing doesn’t mitigate the intensity of the feelings.  Additionally, since I am no longer using food to numb out, I am feeling it all – I have no distractions at all. UGH!!

All I can feel is that if I follow this intuitive call to serve I will end up homeless, penniless and used up. My mind can tell you that is extreme and rather dramatic but my emotions/ego still go there.   I am praying, meditating, doing the energy work to love and transform this fear and old belief pattern.  But for now, that is what is going on with me.

Just to show you how funny God can be, I switched phone companies on Friday morning and now I have terrible sounds coming through the phone.  I don’t hear them but the person on the other end does. The  phone company says they will check on it  and let me know within 48 hours if they need to come out to the house to fix it – maybe that will be this week, maybe not.  So ever since this issue became strong in my energy field for healing I have not been able to have any conversations with clients – so no business (except for one brave and kind soul who put up with it).  Of course, that just triggers the fears EVEN MORE!!  I must REALLY want to heal this once and for all!!!!

Friday, 09 April 2010 18:25

Evolving Each Day

 What an amazingly growthful week this has been for me (for the earth too but I am focused on me in this blog).  I am appreciating the opportunity to really heal so many behavioral, emotional and thought patterns.

Earlier in the week I got to visit some deep fears (see previous blogs).  Yesterday I got to wrestle with the part of me that is extremely self-critical, self-judging and self-abusive. Picture an internal part of me with a whip, constantly beating myself up.  OWCH!!

Sometimes I spend time loving whatever is coming up or handing it over to god.  This felt like I needed to visit with it for awhile to let it come up, or show up, fully.  It didn’t feel good and felt very heavy, as if it wasn’t quite ready to heal but was doing it anyway.  It took all day to release and today I feel kind of hungover and very tired from all the shifting.   I am planning a light, easy day (we will see if my higher self agrees).

On the other hand I am more relaxed about my life and some of the details over which I was worrying. I feel more compassionate in general and certainly more loving towards myself.  My work with others seems to be much easier and more powerful.  I can feel optimism welling up again.

I have no idea how it will affect me in the long run but I am very happy to be healing this part of me. It blocked me from truly appreciating being in existence and from being calm and lighthearted about everything I do.  These old patterns also blocked me from enthusiastically saying yes to each next step my higher self leads me to.  That is kind of contradictory to my commitment to spiritual mastery.  Now I am viewing myself and others through the energy of love and self-acceptance.  It is different – softer and more relaxed and a whole lot more tolerant.  Spiritual evolution at its best!

Tuesday, 13 April 2010 18:24

Just Here Now

 I am having a wonderfully calm, peaceful, optimistic, aware day.It comes after several weeks of intense shifting, but that is usually how it is. The difference is that I am enjoying it fully.  I am not making myself busy, I am not nagging myself to go for a walk or exercise in some other way, I am not trying to think of places I can go just to get out of the house.  I am enjoying the day.  it is sunny and the birds are expressing their joy loudly and the wind is ruffling the trees.  Everything is very green and perky.

I got caught up in someone else’s money fears yesterday and got out of them within hours and was able to help someone move into a more aligned energy place, where she could more fully embrace her higher purpose in this life.  It was a beautiful and moving session with very clear goddess guidance.  I love those sessions.

I am finding a deeper sense of self-acceptance which is leading to greater acceptance and compassion for others.  A lovely side benefit is this inner peace, calm and joy.  I am really enjoying this part of my spiritual evolutionary path.

I appreciate all the work and contrast that occurred for me to be able to enjoy now.

Saturday, 17 April 2010 18:22

Guidance to Alignment

 We always get plenty of opportunity to make changes in the direction of alignment with our higher self.  It is our choice as to how the opportunity shows up and if we actually realign.

I have noticed that the guidance to do that often begins very gently, maybe a whisper of an idea.  Then it gets stronger, perhaps all kinds of synchronicities occur and/or certain things in our life just go away.  Then it gets a lot stronger, sometimes hardship or physical discomfort.    Maybe I see that in my clients and the people around me (in person and online) because it has been that way with me and I notice that which is like me. It is hard to tell.

Also, aligning with our higher self shows up in all areas of our life, financial, relationships, self-talk, physical, etc.   It doesn’t just effect some esoteric beliefs or conscious awareness of ourselves as god.

I was watching a dvd on Thursday night and all of a sudden found myself unable to watch anymore.  I turned it off and thought I was tired.  But what happened is that my higher self wanted to have a talk with me. Usually when my higher self wants me to do something different I gradually become aware of it or I just do it, then wonder afterwards what is going on.  Not this time.  I heard a very firm  voice talk to me that night.   I also know that I had been resisting this guidance for a little while, even going to sleep a few days before when it was trying to come through stronger.

And what did it say?  Did it share more magic from the universe?  Did it give me insight into more earth changes?  NO, it was very practical and direct (and loud!!). It told me to stop eating meat products – no chicken, no ground turkey,  no eggs, no butter and no cheese. A few times a week I can have some fish.    I have been guided and attracted to vegan eating for over 7 years but have not had the internal emotional maturity to stick with it because part of the way I was still limiting myself is by allowing my addiction to certain foods and the effects they had on me emotionally control me.  I even allowed a genetic tendency towards diabetes become a reality because of this.

So when you hear a voice strongly in your head telling in no uncertain terms to change something, you change.  Or at least I did.  This part of me told me some other things too that I needed to change to be able to handle the increase in clientele that I have already co-created.  It was all very practical but tied to the spiritual evolution I have been experiencing recently.  But the way this information came to me was so different I paid attention and acted on it right away.  I am thrilled that I have grown enough that I didn’t have to create any more physical distress to ‘get’ it.

Thursday, 22 April 2010 18:20

Contented Way of Being

I am experiencing some personal changes in an interesting way.  In the past two days I have had the privilege of assisting two friends through pivotal shifts.  However, during each of their shifts I too have been worked on.  I am not sure I have noticed that before.  I know when I work with my monk friend it happens but then she is a very high vibration, and there is no way it cannot.  But now it is happening with me.

Additionally, a week ago I listened to my higher self as it emphatically told me to stop eating meat products.  So now I am detoxing too but I think it is helping my vibration raise more.  My intuitive guidance tells me that there is less resistance in the body to the shifting I am experiencing so it seems to be happening faster.

On two different days this week I basically spent most of the day by myself (other than walking and running to the library) AND, drum roll, I didn’t beat myself up about it or push myself to do anything more.  I am just being – too many changes are occurring for me to do anything else.  Somehow the days are being filled up. Between all the new vegan and raw foods recipes I am trying and all the pro bono work I have been guided to do and the clients, I am busy.  It is a lovely busy though, just enough so I am not too bored but not too much to make me crazy.  I can no longer run from one thing to another.  Everything is mindful or it is stressful.  I kind of like living this way. I am content with myself more times than not.  It is a pleasure to say that and to live it.  I APPRECIATE this state of being immensely.

Sunday, 25 April 2010 18:12

Spiritual Evolution -slightly different

Spiritual growth comes the ways we allow it.  If we close off one way, it shows up some other way. Sometimes we have to approach various parts or phases of it from many different ways at the same time.

Mine often comes with beautiful and exciting visualizations, information, and discernible energy shifting.  I had some of that this week (see my yahoo group for my description of a beautiful integration of a higher aspect of me while working with someone else– down2earthspritstff on yahoogroups.com) This past week it has also come via eating differently and some emotional work done for a program in which I am participating, both of which I was guided to do by my intuition. (This is what I call practical spiritual stuff.)

I switched to vegan eating a little over a week ago.  Not just vegan but about 80% raw with hardly any fruit and no grains (I will eventually begin sprouting them).  I have been amazed at myself at how I just did it considering I have been guided to do this for about 7 years and couldn’t stick with it.  But the time is now, so it is happening.

I have been detoxing since about the 4th day, which is not pleasant but it is informative.  It means my body reeeeaaaaaaally needed this change, to give it a break physically and to help it catch up with the energy shifts the rest of me already went through.  I have already noticed that I generally feel better, even though I cannot put my finger on exactly what is better physically.  However, in my spiritual work there is a greater clarity and ease that is noticeable.  I move quicker into the higher vibration needed to support my clients with their healing choices, and, more importantly, I am staying in that higher vibration longer because my body isn’t fighting off the effects of harsh, and sometimes toxic, food that it doesn’t want or need.

Additionally, either as part of this detox or as part of some emotional inventory work I am doing, I tapped into some deep hurt I had not healed yet.  It is hurt I have visited before but now I am approaching it on a much deeper level.  How can I tell?  Because today when I woke up I felt much lighter after all the emotional flow that happened yesterday when I tapped into the hurt.  I feel as if I opened a door to a place where I had stuffed a bunch of that hurt while trying to believe it didn’t matter or was already healed.

You know how our higher selves are – we are put in situations where we get to learn or heal, if we choose, and where the people we interact with usually participate in that healing in some way.  So I had help in opening the door to this deep hurt by an insensitive and controlling family member who so brilliantly (and easily) triggered some deep feelings of non-acceptance and invalidation.  I also was helped by an acquaintance innocently asking how someone could get to be my age and not have experienced something that I keep thinking I desperately want to experience (life with a mate/partner). It just wasn’t part of her reality so she couldn’t understand it.

I am reminded that if I didn’t have this stuff to heal no one would be triggering me. After all the emotions released I was able to embrace that thought easier (LOL!!) and bless that family member and acquaintance for the role played in all of this.  I also realized that anything I am using as a focus for holding on to old emotions is just a distraction.  If I didn’t already have a belief that I needed something outside of me in order for me to be acceptable or loved or whole, none of the expectations or desires would matter.  For instance, if I accepted myself totally as I am I wouldn’t still have the belief that I need to please anyone else in order to survive or be happy, yet I still have some of that I struggle with. There are a lot more examples but I plan to write them up in another blog.

I am aware of the more practical nature of this phase in my spiritual evolution because of my experiences this week with my reactions to my change in eating and my emotional work done while following my intuitive guidance.  I did not know what would result from following that guidance, but I have enough experience to follow any intuitive guidance that comes to me this strongly.  I am pleased with myself and my growth.

Wednesday, 28 April 2010 18:09

Manifesting Finally

 All the inner preparation we do for creating and manifesting in the outer world DOES pay off.  We just have to remember that the timing is not up to us and that sometimes we also have to heal and integrate a lot that we are unaware of at the time we start our intentions.
The next phase my service to others seems to be developing.  Yesterday I sat down to allow information about possible classes to be developed. I was sure I had no idea what to do but several people over the past month or two have mentioned the idea so I decided to pay attention.  I prayed before going to bed for help in following my guidance on this and the next day I sat at the keyboard and rather flippantly told my inner being to let it flow.  I wasn’t prepared to do any ‘work’ to develop class ideas or descriptions because I didn’t want to ‘make’ it happen, I wanted it to flow easily.  I actually stayed out of my own way and the titles poured out in about 2 seconds with the descriptions following pretty quickly.  That is usually a sign that I am ready to teach and that, perhaps, others need the information.
{ At the moment I am planning on offering classes in the northern coastal San Diego County area and Thousand oaks (45 minutes north of LA,) in California.  I will also be offering one or two monthly channeled Spiritual Evolution Integration Processes via teleconferencing that will support all the participants in doing what is necessary to open and reconnect to their higher vibrational selves.  The information will be on Facebook, this blog and my yahoo group as soon as I know it, and then added to the website.}
I also got a part time job yesterday.  I have been agonizing about getting one for over a year because of my financial status.  In December I began a concentrated effort to bring greater financial abundance into the physical world.  Slowly my business has picked up, too slow for my comfort. I wanted a part time job to help supplement my income but I didn’t want to dilute my focus on my spiritual healing or from my own business.  So I prayed a lot and tried to follow my intuitive guidance about which jobs to apply for and when to apply.
So this past Monday I applied to a bunch of jobs not really paying close attention to them.  If they seemed like I could do them, I applied.  I didn’t spend a lot of time or effort or expend a lot of worry. Again it felt rather flippant – I guess I healed more than I thought or I am sure I wouldn’t have been so carefree about it.  I received a call from one of the emailed resumes on Monday afternoon, interviewed and was hired on Tuesday.
My first immediate reaction was one of doubt and worry that I might be screwing up what I truly want to do by spending so much time with a job but I bundled up all the worry and anxiety and turned it over to God. I am ready for the contrast of financial abundance to begin.
I am trying to balance the practical needs of an every day life in the physical world with my spiritual healing – all part of deep integration.
This job is perfectly situated in the day to give me time to walk, meditate and write in the morning and to work with clients or conduct classes in the evenings and on weekends.  I only mention this because the guidance to structure my life like this began a few months ago, and now I have a job that supports that too.  Isn’t it beautiful how it all came together?
I see all of these developing circumstances as the result of much work with myself to become more positive and to expect and appreciate the wonder of manifesting from joy rather than hopelessness/helplessness.  I also know the intense spiritual healing and integration I have allowed has made all the difference in how I approach all of this.  It is my intention that the practical reality of spiritual integration continues to expand my abundance on all levels in the physical world as well as my spiritual mastery while I am in this human body in this life.  I wish the same for all of you too.
Sunday, 02 May 2010 18:04

Manifesting Perfectly for Ourselves

 Things are moving faster these days. As you expand your awareness of who you truly are, or raise your vibration for higher dimensional living, you manifest faster too, primarily because you have less resistance or underlying limiting beliefs.  While this is occurring, your manifestations come into alignment with the highest good of all and sometimes that highest good does not match what your brain is still telling you that you want, either with the timing, the volume, the exact way it looks or how it comes about. Also, commitments you have made to yourself and the remaining internal beliefs direct the course of the manifestation, even when you are not aware of them.
I know this is a great source of frustration to many but if you think of it as a training ground preparing you for when you have no impediment to creating from your thoughts, you might enjoy it or, at the very least, understand it better.
Think about it.  You don’t want to be creating chaos and destruction when you get mad, or pain for someone else because you are projecting your own inner neediness on to them.  So as you heal yourself of these illusory limitations (blocks from consciously knowing your oneness with god) you clear out space to manifest quickly from your thoughts.  It is why you can manifest small things easier than the bigger, emotionally fraught things, like parking spaces or new shoes or finding the perfect kitchen tool when you need it.
Let me give you an example from my life.  I looked for a job for over a year but I was awash in resentment, anger and fear about it because I really wanted to earn money from doing something I was passionate about and I treasure the freedom that comes from owning my own business.  I assumed I would not find a job I would like and I would have to completely give up my spiritual business. The fear became so great and was affecting me badly that I just couldn’t live with it.   I then spent a lot of time focusing on healing my money fears especially where they were tied to my self-worth and bringing all the wonderful spiritual/energy changes into my physical life.  I went through a very intense acceleration of some inner healing and integrating.
So here we have many reasons the timing was not what I (my ego/brain) wanted – my limiting beliefs about how I wanted to earn an income, some desperately needed healing of money and self-worth issues, and to spur me on through the next few steps in my spiritual evolution. My trust level has increased tremendously about being taken care of in the physical world; either through inspired action or just plain old every day miracles. I would say I got a lot out of the whole situation even though it wasn’t what I wanted or the way I wanted to manifest.
My commitment is to live as the highest and best version of me in the body.  That means my higher self (or some call it inner being) uses every opportunity to help me align with this version of me.   Your commitment to yourself might be different and your experiences will then be different.
What happened is that I got a job just about exactly when I truly needed it, not before.  Now someone else might be angry that he/she had to use up almost all of his/her savings before a job manifested, but those ‘rules’ most people tend to live by, about money and many other things, don’t matter to me.  One of the greatest gifts of this whole situation is that with the greater integration of my higher self into the physical existence I am free of the shackles of others’ expectations, including the ones I assimilated.
Or at least I am free-er, I will discover more as I go along in life.  I am grateful for all the internal shifts that occurred because of this whole situation.  My higher self truly does know better than my ego and I thank god/my higher self that manifesting for me happens in a way that is perfect for me.
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